My heart is being drawn.
God is doing some amazing things in the lives of people all around me as well as in my life. I am filled with an excitement that I have never felt before. An inner excitement that I know is only from God and his divine power. The excitement and joy that I feel now of God’s power and calling is strong enough for me to run up a steep hill at full force! I don’t run, but now…I could. I am dealing with things in my life that I didn’t realize needed to be dealt with or didn’t even see in my life. I am amazed at all that God is doing and that it’s happening with everyone that I come in contact with. He is drawing me back to what He called me to a year ago. I decided a few months ago that I would take matters into my own hands and do what I wanted to do to fulfill my desire instead of what God called me to. I am now more confident that God wants me to do adoption and follow Him in this. Although this means [most likely] more school, with strength from God I can make it through all the studying and research. I haven’t felt more peace about things occurring in my life than I do now. I am scared out of my mind at what God is going to do with and through me because I know that it is going to change me radically, but I am also overcome with so much joy that I don’t know what to do with. I want to weep. Not a sorrowful weeping, but a strong, joyful weep because I know that God is in control and is going to thrive. Where I am going to go through life. I don’t know, but God does and that brings comfort into my life and heart.
